On Emptiness
Receding
(For The Dead Inside)
0402.2025
You are receding—
falling into the horizon
like dusk devouring light.
I struggle saving you—
but even your shadow vanished.
When our thread tore,
it took the scent of spring—
the flowers had just begun
to color my smile
with the lie of joy.
Then came the light—
unforgiving,
unblinking—
dragging the dead
from my heart
into their graves,
and beneath time’s silence,
which keeps them
as captives.
They are like you:
a goodness,
a fragile fire,
burning out
and falling
into a lesson
inside a thousand
lessons.
I must be thankful somehow—
but the gratitude burns.
My eyes have turned to deserts.
The sun devours me.
The night drinks my life.
What goes unnamed
because you lied?
What am I to think,
now that I see—
the joke is me?
I will think:
Turn me into a bird,
so my wings break
from my hiding heart
and carry its sorrow
from night
into half-light.
At least.
I will think:
Turn me into dust,
so I forget
what I have learned
ten thousand times.
I will think:
Let spring
cover me.
Let summer
end this cold.
Let something bloom
in the ruin
of my garden.
m.c.f.
Photo, 2024, m.c.f.